Most of the people who knew me would agree that I am loud, bubbly and seem to be happy always. I love to pitch some punch lines and laugh loud especially when I can see two truths at the same time on friendly conversations. I find laughter as a good outlet of releasing stress and it could dissipate hurt and pain temporarily. It’s like a shot of morphine that could release endorphins, a natural substance released in your body like pain killers. Remember what Elle Woods (Reese Witherspoon) said on Legally Blonde Movie? “Exercise gives you endorphins. Endorphins make you happy. Happy people just don’t shoot their husbands, they just don’t.” Bottom line is that laughter can treat your bad, stressful and boring day with NO side effects.
Most of my life I have bottled my emotions. I deprived myself from anger, frustration and hurt because I fear of losing the people I loved. A friend of mine once told me, if I were a thing I would be a “sponge”, I have the patience and ability to absorb negative emotions. It’s a good thing that people don’t know how bad I feel about them that sometimes, I wanted to squeeze the life out of that person if they only knew. Being silent is a choice and a blessing. It is better that I manage my emotions rather than the other way around. Behind my smile and laugh is a hurting heart with a deep need of healing. When I’m emotionally and spiritually down and the bottled emotions are full and about to explode. I cried to God and I release these emotions through deafening silence. Silence in prayer… Prayer through music…
Here are some of the songs that helped me release those unwanted negative emotions and renew my mind, heart and spirit.
We Are The Reason
Take Me Out Of The Dark My Lord
Natutulog Ba Ang Diyos
Many times I turned down God and fail to recognize His presence in my life. In times of trials and adversities, I stand proud thinking that I can control and solve everything on my own. I forgot to kneel and ask for God’s help and wisdom. In times of good life and blessings are pouring like rain, I forgot to thank God because I’m busy proclaiming it as sort of “luck” and not God’s blessing. After hearing these songs and let the lyrics sink in to my heart, I begin to realize what exactly I’m missing in my life and healing is slowly taking place. I believe God’s message for me is that I am accepted, loved and forgiven!
I encourage you to take time to listen to these songs and you will see how it can lighten your burdens, clear your thoughts and renew your spirit.